No, I’m not talking about something on the internet. Y’know, click on this, click on that, sorta thing. This is something that I got from a celebration meeting tonite. It was for two addicts celebrating four and one year respectively.
The most amazing part that I got from the meeting tonite was from the speaker. He gave such an amazing spiel of recovery like I’ve haven’t heard in literally years. He spoke for about 30 minutes, said that he had twenty months of cleantime, and gave me all those things that I believe are the paramount of what recovery can give.
This addict spoke of his last bout of using, of going into a recovery treatment program with the attendant ups and downs, and, but wow, the beauty of doing the right things in recovery. God, meetings, sharing, work the Twelve Steps (!!!), service by giving back, phone numbers & calling them… oh my good golly gosh!! What a damned great message of recovery he gave!
My sponsor brought me to this meeting because he was doing the keytags that nite (and a supreme job he did there as usual!). I didn’t know either of the celebrants. The one getting his first year I knew from my home group, but who he was… well, I had no idea. Same for the one getting four years. never saw him before and didn’t know diddly about him. Still…, still, I “knew” them both. They are addicts in recovery. That allows me to know who they are.
Clicking in. I clicked in when the speaker shared about all those things that I believe are the basis of recovery. God. Service. The Twelve Steps. Sharing. Fellowship. Meetings and a Home Group. Fuck, I tell ya, things that I know work, and that I sometimes forget about.
Clicked in. I saw many people (again) that I hadn’t seen in a long while. I got what God wanted me to see. I found that “different way to live”, or as I like to put it, “different ways to live”. What I truly need to do now, or start doing, is to put myself out to the fellowship more. I need to start talking to more addicts, give my phone number out more, and collect more. I need to call more addicts, not just my sponsor (which I am doing rather poorly at right now). I need to start sharing at my home group and stop my “shut up and listen” schlemiel. I need to Open Up.
Clicked in. I may be clicked in now. It’s all in whether or not I keep this or just go back to what I have been. The isolationist. Something new? Something different? It may be what I need right now. Let’s see if the next day holds what I have right now. Hm?
Keep The Faith*
